If only I had wings so I can fly
I wanna be with you for all of time
My love for you will never die
If only you could here me shout your name
If only feel my love again
The stars in the sky will never be the same
If only you were here

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Sunday, December 31, 2006

so long never post le...
cause not really in the gd mood plus i have nth to share so didnt post...
these few daes have no mood cause i have been thinking abt the past...
i was really happii tt time...
but now...
haiz...
hope things can go back to the past...
can we , ****** ?
really miss the past...
last few daes went back to school for SYF practice...
is reallt tough...
nw my whole body aches...
todae went out wif friend to shop...
quite happii...
i brought quite a lot of things...
actually wanted to go countdown de..
but in the end dun have...
at around 6++ came back to Bukit Panjang...
den went to her house nearby to talk till 10++...
hahas...
den we both lik siao siao de...
todae quite fun..
but think may not be able to go out wif her till end of next year...
cause of my studies la...
now getting to stress le...
arh!!!
going to stop here le....
bb...tc...

Thursday, December 21, 2006

sry..
this one week did not post anything...
cause of something and someone...
so no mood to post...

yesterdae went back to school early in the morning to do some science practical....
its quite fun although quite complicated...
todae also doing back to school to continue doing other science practical....
although this is up to us to decide if we wan to go back anot...
but i think this is a gd chance for mi to get ready for my 'o' level practical exam for 2008...
so i went back to school to try it out...
veri kiasu hor...

this few daes got something happened...
but i dun wish to tok abt liao..
this few daes also have been thinking abt this problem...
i have thought of it le...
even if the person did not treat mi as a friend...
but i think i will still treat the person as my friend ba...
but i dun think i will let the person noe tt i will still care for the person...
there is no reason y i dun wan let the person noe...
is jus tt i wish to let it be this way...
i also wish to apologise to tt the person if tt person misunderstood mi tt i m angry wif the person...
sry, ******...

these few daes also dunno wat happened to mi la...
keep thinking of ****** and the problem which is bothering mi...
also felt quite bad abt it..
but i think i will overcome it de ba...
sry...i gtg le...
bb...tc...

Thursday, December 14, 2006

todae wake up at 10++...
do the same thing again...
tts is watch tv...
at afternoon my father ask mi to bring my siblings and my mum to go out one dae...
cause he not free as he need to work...
think i will bring them out ba...
hope tt all my friends will have no problems...
cause when i noe they have problems yet i cant help them...
i really think tt i m a 'bad' friend...
plus i will be veri hurt...
especially when is between two of my best friends...
i rather i suffer for them den seeing them ignoring each other...
wat should i do to help them?
i really wish to help my friends wif problems...
but y cant they trust mi and tell mi their problems?
i dunno y i suddenly dun feel lik going back to school when school reopens...
maybe cause of the bulliers ba...
hope will overcome the problem...
haiz..
wat should i do???
think i stop here le..
cause nth to write le...
bb...tc...

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

todae wake up at 10...
after eaten my breakfast...
my mum ask mi to go help her buy something...
at NTUC there saw '3' ...
but i dun think the person saw mi...
todae do nth except for watching tv...
also tok on the phone wif a person...
dunno y i have a feeling tt i and my friends have nth to tok abt...
hope me and my friends relationship will not get worse...
i dunno y two of my friends suddenly dun tok to each other liao...
also dunno wat happened to them la...
hope they will patch back ba...
suddenly i felt tt i m so useless...
i cant even help them to settle their problems...
actually i also dunno wat is their problems...
really hate myself....
ARR!!!
i m really so useless...
i cant even settle my own problems...
yet i wan to settle my friends problems...
how can i improve m and my family relationship...
jus feel lik sleeping forever and dun wake up...
haiz...
tts all wat i have to write...
bb...tc...

Monday, December 11, 2006

yesterdae so tired cause the whole dae of saturday didnt sleep...
cause going to malaysia in the early in sunday moring (5 am...)...
went to visit relatives...
but at there do nth except for sleeping and watch tv...
todae at 8++ wake up...
den at 10++ came back to singapore...
when reach singapore already 1+ le...
went to buy food to eat cause in the moring didnt eat anything...
at the kopitiam...
saw the ' teddy bear' and mr James (TA) going there for lunch...
jus now chat wif the 'teddy bear' in the msn...
but halfway though the com hang...
haiz...
didnt have the chance to say 'sry' to him for the accident...
todae is also my younger bro's birthdae...
buti also didnt give him anything...
i think u may think tt i m a bad sis...
maybe i really m a bad sis ba...
here i hope tt my parents will not quarrel again...
cause when they quarrel...
i m really veri upset...
haiz...
i think i will stop here le...
bb.. tc...

Friday, December 08, 2006

haiz...
todae wake up at 10...
i also dunno y i wake when i m so tired...
maybe cause saw my sis and bro wake up ba...
den watch tv...
cause nth to do...
as my sis using the com...
when she let mi use...
i online for a while den when to my blog...
at afternoon...
cause no show to see so when to my room to listen to songs...
jus came out of my room...
cause my mum went to cook dinner...
so i came to write in my blog or later may not have the chance le...
hahas...
todae veri happii when i receive a give from my friend, kelly...
although she jud gave mi a keychain...
i will treasure it de...
haiz...
i wonder how is the person-(2)...
hope the person will not retain...
i also hope 1 can be wif the person-(1's stead) forever...
wish all the ppl all the best..
yeah...!

to someone:
i think u r a lucky person cause u wan present got present..
got so many ppl plus ur family hu care for u and love u..

these daes not really in a gd mood...

i felt tt i at hm lik an extra lik tt...
cause when i tok to them..
they dun even bother to answer mi...

plus always kenna scolding for nth...
so idiotic...! hate it so much...!

its all for todae..
bb...tc...

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

todae wake up veri early....
cause need to go to see doctor wif my mum...
hope tt my mum and mine problem will not be worse...
at afternoon went to have a nap...
at 3++ wake up den went to eat my dinner...
jus came back from the kopitam...
cause went to help my bro to buy food..
hu ask mi to be his sis...
so have to help him...
cause he now painting the metal door...
hahas...
i now still the same...
dun really have any mood...
but i think got become better ba...
hope the person and the person's stead will be veri xin fu...
wish them all the best..
maybe will continue tml..
bb..tc...

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

yesterday my bro ask mi to play maple story for him...
but i play until 4pm only...
at nite my mum use the com...
maybe tt time forget to offline so my cousin came to chat wif mi...
but he wanted to talk to my bro not mi..
so i ask my bro to take over..
my cousin said he is cuming to s'pore one of the daes...

todae wake up at 10++...
den went to watch tv while waiting for my mum to come back...
when she came back...
she brought food for us to eat...
jus now online for awhile...
den went to see ppl's blog...
after seeing..
i think tt the person is so lucky...
wan present got present..
plus so many ppl lik the person...
think todae will be the usual dae for mi...
watch tv the whole dae...

sometimes wish to go out..
but scared spend too much $...
plus also nobody to ask to go out wif mi..
but also use to it le...
so jus stay at hm and get nagged plus see my family's face...
haiz...

Sunday, December 03, 2006

todae wake up at 10++...
at home watch tv...
den at 1++ went plaza wif my family except for my bro...
went to M1 shop and Starhub to see phone...
but in the end didnt buy any phone...
after tt went to OSIM to buy my mum's thing...
den buy sushi cause my younger bro wanted to eat...
also buy some for myself and my bro...
after tt went to buy sweetalk for my younger bro and bro while they went to mac to buy my father's dinner...
at there saw two persons but not sure if they saw mi...
i felt boring and happii when went out wif my family..
boring cause they jus went to see their own things...
happii cause can go out wif them...
now alone at home...
cause my father went to work le...
while the others went to buy things...
haiz...
these daes also dunno wat happened to mi...
lik no mood lik tt...
haiz... hope tml will be better for mi...

Saturday, December 02, 2006

haiz...
these few daes do nth except watching tv...
also get nagged by my parents....
but after recalling wat he had said...
i think i m really a useless girl if i still dun....
haiz...
hope tt i can be free of the nagging...
also hope tt i can be a trust worthy friend where my friends can tell mi their problems and not keeps their problems to themselves and made themselves so stress...
also hope tt i can find a trust worthy friend so tt i can tell them my problems and need not scared tt he/she will backstab mi or tell others my problems...
now i hope tt the person will stop thinking things tt the person shouldnt think...
also tt the person can quit gang , smoking competely...
i also hope tt i can noe the person's problem and help him wif it...
this is all wat i wan to write...
will continue tml ( if possible )
bb.. tc..