>++i will be rightt here waitin ferr euu++

2011-02-23T22:42:00.002+08:00

i m sad now...
veri veri sad...
cause saw something...
they went outing together...
y y y?
y cant they ask mi along...
do they really hate me tt much...
y cant they give me a chance to go out with them???
do we have any misunderstanding?
cant they tell mi wats going on?
i feel veri terrible now...
really really terrible...
the moment i saw the photos they took..
i burst to tears...
reaaly useless hor...
small matter only i also cry..
bt i jus cant help it...
i also dunno y...
depression?
i dunno...
haiz.. shall stop here le...

2011-02-20T14:10:00.002+08:00

i m back after so long...
have been MIA so long cause have nth to update as i life have been the same for the past few months...
has lunch alone, sit alone...
cant wait to graduate...
i m really veri tired le..
everytime see them feel lik crying..
when i go to places where i had fun with them, i think of the past..
is it my fault or hu's?
hu can tell mi?

another thing is i started to suspect tt i m having depression..
i would feel lik crying suddenly and sometimes would feel lik dying thinking tt i m an extra in this world even if i go.. no one will care...
however, i still feel tt i m fortunate as i still have a group of friends hu really care abt me..
although they r nt in my sch/class, they would still stay in contact with me asking me out to tok...
really grateful to them...

2010-07-07T10:14:00.002+08:00

damn long never update my blog already...
bt i think it make no difference also no one will come and see de...
bt nvm cause its for mi to vent my feelings here...
life have nt been smooth for mi...
in fact it has been miserable...
went to China, Wuhan on feb to apr...
thought tt after coming back would be better...
however it became worse...
wat r friends?
hu to trust?
i realise tt even i trust and care abt ppl...
they wont care or bother or appreciate it...
they will even backstab...
i noe i cannot behave this way...
and i m trying nt to be bothered by those....
i must change...
bt i need time...
and wats wrong of being jealous...
its more on envy ba..
bt anything wrong?
i jus wan to be lik others hu have friends around them...
y does it seems tt its so far away from me..
sometimes feel so tired, feel lik giving up..
bt i dun wan to...
dunno wat to sae...
tt's all...
bb..tc..

2010-01-07T19:52:00.002+08:00

its the beginning of the new year bt it seems to be a bad year for mi..
cause i m having problems with my friends le...
these few daes was so damn sad lor...
i dunno how to face them though i m still in their clique..
i m so lost now...
y do i have to face this kind of problem everytime???
y cant i escape from this kind of life???
already 10 years of this king of life...
isnt it enough??
i had enough !!!
i cant take it anymore le...
i feel lik giving up...
i had veri gd impression of them when i first noe them...
i didnt expect it to happen...
really disappointed and hurted...
bt wat can i do??
i can only jus bear with it and pretend tt nth has happened..
however it will stay in my mind for some time...
kks..
should stop here le..
before my tears really roll down..
bb..tc...

2009-12-25T13:49:00.002+08:00

wow... so long since my last post...
lat week was my common test...
i think it was alright except for my advance statics which i thought was mybest module bt i think i did badly for tt paper....
last fri after our last paper, almost the whole class went to bugis to eat seoul garden..
after tt few of my friends and i went to window shop for a while before we went to watch oour movie...
last sun, woke up at about 5 am to get ready to go to sch to assemble and off to Malaysia
(gopeng and pangkor island)
1st dae:
was jus travelling fron singapore to malaysia...
after clearing the customs and immigrations, we proceed for our breakfast at around 9 plus...
after tt continue with journey..
at around 2 plus we stopped agian for our lunch..
i had A&W for lunch...
quite ok lor the food...
after tt we continue with the journey...
around 6 plus we reach Gopeng and transfer to the Earth camp to have our dinner den rest for the dae...
2nd dae:
after breakfast, we went to a cave called Gua Tempurung for caving...
after tt was back to the campsite for lunch...
den we went for water rafting and it was damn fun...hahas
after tt went to wash up and was dinner time...
den it was bedtime :)...
3rd dae:
woke up at 3 am to get ready to depart to pangkor island...
reached the jetty at lumut quite early so had our packed breakfast while waiting...
while on the ferry, we saw the sunrise and it was nice...
when we reach the island, we place our bags in a room in a resort..
den change and went for our kayaking...
after tt was lunch...
and snorkelling...
many of us was injured after the snorkelling as there are may rock there...
den we went back to the resort and check in...
went to wash up and watch disney channel in the room...
after tt was bbq dinner...
as it was packed hence my friends and i decided to bring back our room to eat..
and the food really really sucks...
den slack in the room and it was bedtime...
4th dae:
woke up at around 5am to packed our things and went for our buffet breakfast..
after eating went back to our room to gt our things and check out...
den went to take ferry back to lumut and to KL for lunch and some shopping...
after tt the tour guide brought us to buy chocolates...
bt i jus manage to buy some as nt much money left...
den continue with journey again...
few hours later they stopped for dinner...
after was journey back to singapore le...
reach sch abt 10 plus and my friend is so gd to send me hm and i reached hm at 11 plus..
tt's all.. :D
pictures will be in facebook :)
bb..tc...

2009-11-10T20:52:00.002+08:00

so sian...
i type two times bt both also disappear le :(
i think i jus keep it short ba..
todae went K-box wif the four of them and had fun wif them...
hahas...
i felt better too after all the singing...
weird rite???
hahas :)

2009-10-29T21:06:00.002+08:00

so long after my last post...
here to update wat happened recently...
after sch reopen..
enjoyed myself wif my classmates...
they damn joker sia...
however i also realise something veri cruel from the bigger group...
they treat one of my classmate veri bad...
though he still follow them bt i think he is veri pitiful...
i so scared..
i scared tt history will repeat...
i dun wan to experience the same thing agian..
its veri hurtful...
haiz..
bt i cant do anything abt it...
jus receive my latest time table...
mon - 9am to 2pm...
tues - 8am to 12 pm
wed - 9 am to 6 pm...(gt diploma plus)
thurs - 9 am to -5pm
fri - 9 am to 6.30 (gt diploma plus & CCA)...
now also sick...
having flu and cough for almost a week already...
hopefully will get well soon lor...
and thanks to those hu caoncern abt mi...
hais dunno wat to write le...
bb....tc..

2009-09-03T00:52:00.002+08:00

hi...
i m back after one month plus since my last post...
actually nth much happen la...
now is my holidae!!!
bt i m nt tt happi lor...
the reason beng is tt i m so bored at hm except for working...
and i also broke le...
any kind soul wan to treat mi out?
jus kiddin de la...
hais...
before the holidae start was my final test....
bt all i can sae is dun put too much hope on it...
cause i also no confience tt i can do as well as the common test...
last week went for class outing at a chalet at paris ris as well as a celebration for a classmate...
bt tt classmate lik emo leh...
we also dunno y..
after few daes after the chalet had a SB camp in NP...
all i can sae is a bit of waste of time as it was quite boring except for few parts...
tml will be going to amk to celebrate a belated birthdae for our class rep...
hahas..
hope will be fun...
next week tues will be going out for a dinner wif the pirates...
hehes...
hope many will be turning up lor...
cause everytime i go a lot of them didnt turned up..
so sad...

hais...
yesterdae was so shock and worried...
my mum suddenly nt feeling veri well...
and i still ask her to accompany mi to NTUC...
on our way back she vomited every few steps she took...
i guess my mum told my dad and he brought her to the doctor...
when she came back she vomited agian..
now i feel so guilty la...
hope she will be fine soon...
alright....
guess tt's all for now...
bb...tc...

2009-07-13T16:25:00.002+08:00

hihi....
almost one month since my last post...
jus being lazy to blog...
as well as nth to blog....
it's already three months since i m in this new environment...
at first was vei happi as i have really nice classmates...
totally different frm those fake ppl i met in sec sch...
however....
getting to be more unhappy each time....
i also dunno y....
maybe because of jealousy...
i m really jealous each time whenever i see them helping the rest to celebrate their birthdae....
bt lik no one remember my birthdae...
so envy....
maybe i m jus invisible to them ba....
only when they need mi den they will come to mi...
anyway...
i should be numb by it ba...
as i m usd to it le....
no presents, no celebraion for lik more then ten years....
every year lik nt even five presents...
this year even worse...
no present...
only one from m beloved GL for 3DO camp, Aziz...

haiz...

enough of these...

so far so good....

everyone treat mi quite good...

i m contented....

regading to the poblems i had previously...

i have nth to sae...

guess tt's should be all for now...

bb..tc...

2009-06-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

back after one month....
due to my laziness and nth to post....
problems still nt solved yet...
bt feeling better...
CT are over....
holidaes r here bt left with few daes...
had been working...
having two dae off...
one was last fri...
and i went out with my precious pirates mates...
bt only Jing Ting, Aziz, julia and me were there....
however....
still had fun with them...
in fact always had fun with them la...
next off dae was tml...
suppose to go out de...
bt something happened...
and our outing was gone...
hais....
wat can i do tml leh...
sleep the whole dae?
see how lor...
think tt's should be it le lor..
have nth to update leh...

2009-05-28T22:00:00.002+08:00

back to blogging again...
veri stress these few weeks due to some personal problems....
dun ask mi y...
i wont tell u unless u i m the one hu wanted to tell...
sch was fine...
two more weeks and common test is coming...
jus feel lik sreaming and shouting lik nobody business...
cried a lot these few daes...
due to the problems i m facing now....
i have no mood to do anything...
bt wat can i do except for putting a strong front in front of others...
so dun assume tt i m happi when i laugh...
i think tt's all for now...
going to rest le...
bb..tc...

2009-05-05T22:04:00.001+08:00

hahas...
after one week, im back!!!
did nth much la...
1st may went out with mabel & yi qi...
had fun when out if them....
bt did lots of walking...
sat and sun went to work....
then sch starts again...
we r suppose to perform something on fri dae...
bt we jus make our final decision yesterdae...
all cause of the guys...
keep changing their minds...
oh ya...
i m the treasurer for my class...
i op for it de...
cause can gt cca points...
wahaha...
think tt's all for now...
shall update when i have things to sae...
hahas..
ciao ppl... tc...

I still looking for a laptop bag...
though i have one le...
bt i wan one with whole zipped and in pink, nt half zipped...
so meanwhile have to use the half zipped one...

I WAN A NEW HELLO KITTY WALLET!!!
bt where can i find it???

2009-04-24T18:28:00.003+08:00

hahas...

so long since my last post...

actually wasnt busying la...

jus lazy...

and nth to blog...

16 & 17/4 had induction games where i met all my clasmates...

quite fun la...

jus tt i'm tanned..

went out wif mabel and yi qi on the 18/4...

did a lot of walking...

really had fun...

19/4 was my last dae of work...

actually nt really last dae la....

will be working on the weekends...

20/4 : first dae of sch....

quite ok la....

jus tt classmates was veri quiet...

now was ok le....

had lunch together and talk...

had CCA fair on the first and sec dae...

quite interested in dancesport club which is something lik latin dance and the other was aerobics which is something lik kickboxing yoga and stuff...

i think tt's all wat i have done recently...

nth to post le..

bb..tc...

2009-04-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

hihi....
it has been long time since my last post...
and i m back..
hahas...
well...
i have gotten my lappy few weeks ago...

after tt i went for my ICT

camp....
it was fun though torturing...
oh ya...
it was so the qiao tt jing ting was my leader for the camp...
and she is so hyper lor...
den back to my working life again...
however went out wif my groupmates as well as campmates too...
yesterdae went to eat streamboat wif my teamates and some other groups leaders, game masters and camp planner...
todae went to sentosa early in the morning wif campmates...
it was a post camp activity...
it suppose to be a whole dae activity...
bt cause i have to work so i left first...
hais...
so sad...
dunno when will meet up wif them again...
bt lucky i went off first... cause many were thrown or dragged into the water by the guys...
so bad lor...
i think tt all ba...
nth to post le...
bb..tc...

2009-03-17T20:13:00.002+08:00

here to post again...
now at bangkit cdac...
same as last week..
waiting for my siblings to finish their lesson...
last thursday went out wif mabel...
as its my off dae....
something happened....
and its always happen when i wif mabel...
hahas...
as usual working for the pass few daes...
yesterdae i work morning shift so afternoon went out...
went np to do my registration...
went to look for laptop...
saw ex- schmate-->jing ting...
at first wanted to buy fujisu laptop....
bt after hearing wat jing ting sae...
i brought acer laptop...
and its black....
though its nt wat i wan bt the design is nice and its gd...
i think its 2.3kg...
to some it might be heavy...
bt i think its ok...
it cost mi $1701.30...
bt nt paid bt mi....
use my father's $...
cause its out of stock tt time so it will be delivered to my house within 15 daes...
after tt i will make a appointment download software at np...
after buying laptop...
went to register for ict camp...
after tt went sp...
accompany my bro for his interview for his desired course...
hope he can get in lor...
think tt all for todae...
bb..tc...

2009-03-03T20:15:00.002+08:00

i m back again...
todae is my off dae...
so here to update something...
now at bangkit de cdac....
waiting for my siblings as they gt tuition here...
last week went back to school again to do somethings....
heard tt mr vincent seah went back to school to teach again....
happi for him....
bt also sad why last year didnt go back....
this year den go back...
heavy rain so only went back hm after rain stop....
luckily didnt work on tt dae...
or else dunno how le....
these few daes as usual go to work....
one of the cashier and one of the retail assistant resign...
dunno why la...
think will be shorthanded ba...
cause one of the cashier also doing retail assistant so maybe most of the time he will be doing stocks...
den cashier will be veri busy ba...
tt's all for todae le...
bb..tc...

2009-02-19T00:14:00.004+08:00

went back to school todae wif jh...
wanted to get o level cert...
bt nt out yet...
went to lib to visit...
jh gave out present which she brought from kota tinggi...
she so gd rite...
tok wif the juniors...
quite funny lor...
check somethings at sp website...
went hm at around 4...
had a quick dinner before went to work...
saw mr kan during work...
a ex west spring teacher....
he's lik a 'father' to many of us...
as he understands us more than our parents...
funny rite...
did a cashback for him as the atm outside fairprice was spoilt again...
reach hm at 10 plus after work...
help sis wif her hmwork...
made something to eat after bathing...
jus finish eating and washing the dishes...
wanted to digest a bit so here to update...
recently everydae lik tt...
sure become fatter de lor...
guess will start eating less from tml onwards le...
tt's all for todae...
bb...tc....

2009-02-14T23:10:00.002+08:00

i m back...
still working in fairprice...
these few daes suffering sia...
running nose is already bad enough...
bt mine is running nose + nose bleeding...
dunno why la...
nose also a bit pain...
didnt see doctor...
didnt want to spent unnessary money....
guess few daes later will be fine le...
plus my nose bleeding is a "old problem"...
so no worries....
todae was valentine's dae...
nt much ppl todae...
well guess tt's all for todae...
here i wish everyone a happi valentine's dae!!!
bb...tc...

2009-02-03T19:34:00.003+08:00

hihi...
it has been long time since i update...
first of all....
my results...
although it was quite ok...
bt its still nt the results i wanted....
when i gt back my results...
i was nt given any choice...
as the form a sae i was accepted by the DPA bt i have already rejected...
after going to the MOE for two daes...
the matter was resolved...
and i have chosen my poly courses....
the result came out on 31/1....
i was enroled to np , financial informatics...
bt currently still waiting for my DAE for sp and np for accountacy course...
i think it will be out by april...

now abt CNY....
dae 1 went to malaysia to my grandfather house...
reach there veri early....
wait for relatives come...
some cousins and my bro gamble while waiting....
everybody wins except for my "aunt-in-law" who is banker...
see them play veri funny...
hahas...
after tt didnt go anywhere till dae 7...
went to malaysia agian...
this time is to my granduncle house...
had fun there...
cause have my aunts....
they veri friendly...
hahas...

now abt work...
start work during dae 3....
quite ok...
though some customer pissed mi off....
bt also cannot do anything...
supervisers were veri friendly...
in fact everyone was veri friendly....
except for some...
nt so close wif them...
maybe will continue work when reopen school....
if gt time la...
cannot cope den decide wat to do...
well...
tt's all i have to sae...
bb...tc...

2009-01-08T20:28:00.002+08:00

im back....
yesterdae receive a few sms saeing tt 12/1 getting results...
feeling ok with it leh...
dunno y have no special feelings lik the others....
well these few daes....
did nth except working....
so tired....
feel lik not enough sleep when sleep a long time le...
dunno y la....
jus now damn angry la...
how other ppl sae mi...
i dun mind...
cause i numb le....
bt how will u feel if ur family also tease u???
so damn fed up wif it lor...
maybe on the 12/1 i will go off after i gt my result...
see situation lor....
nth to write le....
bb...tc....

2008-12-29T12:34:00.002+08:00

hahas...
im back..
so long didnt up date le...
well...
these few daes busy working...
although short hours...
bt dunno why so tired leh...
met a lot of weird customers la...
bt jus heck care lor...
wat's important is i did my job...
hahas...
todae off...
later will go swimming wif my family and my god sis and her bros...
hope will have fun la...
nth to post le...
shall stop here le..
bb...tc...

2008-11-30T13:09:00.002+08:00

back again...
well...
yesterdae went out...
had fun...
ntuc ppl also called mi yesterdae...
after much consideration...
i have decided to go ntuc and work...
its more convenient and more hua suan....

todae morning went to bontanic garden...
quite boring lor...
bt breakfast provided...
we had mac chicken burger...
after tt hung around wif my siblings friends...
i noe is a bit childish for u guys...
bt tt's mi...
and we saw a frog too...
one of my sis friend and i gt along quite well...
he send songs to mi and we exchange contact no...
he's quite a funny guy la..

well shall stop here le...
have nth to post abt le...
next post will be...
i also dunno la...
hahas...
bb..tc...

2008-11-28T20:44:00.002+08:00

i m back again...
well this few weeks didnt did much thing...
jus tt went out wif MABEL to look for a job....
and we found one....
bt isnt the one we wanted...
but no choice...
well we both work at different place...
i work at takashimaya while she at centre point....
she will start work on mon while i will be later cause need to do a pass first..

well....
few daes back i receive a letter...
which is edusave scholarship award...
place is at zhenghua CC at 27/12/2008 at 2pm...
wonder hu is also at the time de...

gt to stop here le...
nt sure when will update again bt will nt be too soon cause going to start work soon le...
bb...tc...

2008-11-18T14:28:00.012+08:00

i m back...

yesterdae was west spring's prom nite....

it was quite fun..

food was nice too bt some didnt ate cause cannot eat...

there were games too...

lastly also gt salsa dance...

it was nt too bad la...

jus tt gt a bit messy...

overall quite ok...

jus tt something happened when it came to the end...

shall nt mention here...

after tt we took a class photo...

den i and jiehui went back first while others maybe still taking photos ba...

shall start looking for a job le...
at hm veri sian lor...

though can watch tv bt some show nt nice de...

jus now went internet to search...

emailed them bt havent gt their reply...

yi qi also told mi tt new york new york also looking for helpers...

maybe i will go try it out ba....

nt so sure yet...

anyway thanks yiqi for the reccomandation... :)

shall stop here le...

here r some photos i took yesterdae...

enjoy seeing...

bb..tc...

2008-10-09T22:21:00.002+08:00

hi... i'm back...
hahas..
so long didnt update le....
change blogskin le...
with the help of mabel..
she is such a good friend...
she has been helping a lot...
hehe..
learnt lots of things from her...
she is jus lik a 'big sister' to mi...
hahas...
well these few weeks is busying studying wif her for the preparation for the last lap...
o level is jus few daes away...
and i m worried and scared..
well tt's all for todae...
bb...tc...

lastly... thank you mabel... you are really a great friend!!

2008-09-27T11:50:00.002+08:00

todae will be a bad dae for mi...
jus now kenna punch by my stupid idiotic irresponsible bro...
haiz...
y do i have such family???
wat have i done wrong to deserve such treatment from them...
hate this home so much....
hope to gt out this stupid home asap!!!
to mi, this home does seems lik a home...
its jus a place for sleeping!!!
dun wish to continue le..
bb..tc...

2008-09-18T16:45:00.002+08:00

haiz...
todae damn sad lor...
so many things happened...
first, i failed my mother tongue..
bt luckily teacher sae will use o level results and put in the report book...
jus now feel lik crying bt didnt la...
secondly, jus now after ken's talk...
mi, joanne, michelle, xin yi, yvonne and zi wei was held back by mr seet...
because of some reasons....
dun wish to sae it here...
bt tt thing i nt involve de...
bt still being held back...
thirdly, when i reach hm jus now...
my father told mi a veri bad news...
veri sad lor...
i want to continue my studies...
hopefully the company wont close down lor...
so worried now...
this affects my future sia...
haiz....
shall stop here le...
bb...tc...

2008-09-13T12:06:00.003+08:00

This two images are created by mi!! ;)

my name... hahas :)

R = Regina :)

yesterdae went out....

went to IMM...
around four plus den went hm le...

reach hm..

ate my big mac which my mum save it for mi...

and sushi which i brought at IMM...

for a while later prepared for my CDAC night class...

after the class went hm and had my bath...

den sat at the living room to watch tv le...

after the show...

sat in front of the com and start doing my images...

cant really finish and feeling tired le so went to sleep...

this morning wake up continue doing...

the completed work is shown above le...

later maybe going out to study wif mabel..

if nt, going out to yew tee there...

tt's all for todae...

bb...tc...

2008-09-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

oh yeah...
prelims r over....
finally can relax a bit le...
or else i will denfinitely become depressed de...
now prelims r over....
i hope when i gt back my results i will be smiling happily and nt crying....
todae quite happii and sad...
happii cause i gt a gd news when i online todae...
my aunt hu is in USA now will be having a twins...
so happii when i heard it...
another two cousin coming up le...
hahas....
sad because kenna scolding todae...
dunno eat wrong medicine or wat sia....
tok on the phone also gt wrong de....
also didnt sae wont fold the clothes...
jus toking on the phone only wat...
also will gt scolding...
tok wif friends also gt wrong meh....
****** father of mine!!!!
so damn angry lor....
well tt's all for todae....
next update might be before o level or after o level..
bb...tc...

2008-09-04T18:25:00.002+08:00

hi...
im back...
these few weeks busying meeting up wif my best buddy, mabel to prepare for prelims...
is veri stressful for mi...
i think going to be depressed le ba...
these daes also will feel lik crying for no reasons...
tears jus flow down so suddenly....
dun ask mi wat happen to mi...
i also dunno myself....
sometimes i dun even understand myself....
y m i working so hard for myself when my parents dun even care...
hais...
hu ask mi to be so 'stupid'...
so have to work double hard compare to those hu r smart...
well....
no matter wat...
i will continue to try harder even if i need to work triple harder...
hahas...
siao rite...
well...
tts mi..
i can only use this method to forget all my unhappiness i had...
hu ask mi to be so unpopular...
luckily still have my best buddies hu r always by my side whenever i m sad...
thanks guys....
tt's all for todae...
next post might be after my prelim or after o level...
bb...tc...

2008-08-05T19:48:00.002+08:00

im back...
these few weeks didnt update cause busy studying with mabel at her house...
last fridae went to SP for DPA interview...
hope i will be selected lor...
yesterdae was so unlucky lor...
during pe lesson the stupid teacher la..
ask everybody to play captian ball..
den during the game..
kanna hit by the ball...
so pain lor..
cause mi to have headache since yesterdae...
todae..
no lessons...
bt have prelim practical...
i did quite fast...
in the end i had some mistake...
bt nvm..
i m prepared to learn from it....
hahas..
tt's all for todae!!!
bb...tc..

2008-07-19T18:37:00.002+08:00

hi...
i m back... :P
these daes have been veri stress for mi...
bt no choice...
o level ma...
almost everydae after school went to mabel's house to study wif her...
its lik everydae study 10 hrs including school hrs...
pro rite...
think have been stressing myself too much...
i m getting weaker each dae...
every morning wake will have headache and throat nt feeling well...
fortunately....
at the end of the dae i will feel better...
guess will stop here le..
i have nth to sae le...
bb...tc...

2008-07-02T20:35:00.002+08:00

haiz..
these few daes still veri moody...
i think the person is still angry ba...
todae go assembly tt time walk past him..
i dun dared to see him..
i dun wan us to feel weird...
dunno wat to sae le...
jus hope tt he will be happii...
he dun forgive mi nvm...
most importantly is he happii...
haiz...
think shall stop here le...
nth to sae le..
bb...tc...

2008-06-30T20:35:00.003+08:00

todae the whole dae was veri moody...
cause i did something veri bad yesterdae night...
i dun mean to hurt u de...
is jus tt i really sick and tired of ur threatening towards mi...
i so worried abt u when u said all those threatening...
i m so scared tt u will really go do it...
bt u jus dun understand...
u always made mi worried for u...
last night i didnt sleep well and todae i was damn tired...
haiz...
saw ur blog...
i didnt noe tt it hurt u so much...
now i regret so much....
bt i noe no matter wat i sae now is of no use le...
cause i already hurt u a lot le...
i also dun dare to wish u to forgive mi...
i guess i only can sae sry ba...
nth to sae le...
bb...tc....

2008-06-11T22:34:00.002+08:00

can't sleep so decided to post...
mondae after studying wif mabel...
we crap a lot of things...
at abt 6 plus went separate ways le...
bt den when i was crossing the road...
i was my past best sis....
we have nt been contacting each other for quite a long time le...
however, tt time she seems to be in a rush..
hence we did nt tok to each other...
as i was on my way back hm....
i recalled the times when we were together...
it was such happi times (although i was always veri quiet when i was wif them)
todae went to her's and another best sis - siti's blog...
after seeing their posts...
i was again reminded of the times....
i miss them sooooooooo much...
bt m not be able to tell them...
hais...
tt's all for todae...
bb...tc...

2008-06-07T23:41:00.002+08:00

due to someone...
i decided to post todae...
recently had been doing hw and studying...
i guess i overstress myself le...
todae not feeling veri gd...
bt didnt tell someone...
scared the person worry...
hope the person wont be angry when the person see this...
during this holidae...
i m a different person now....
i m a person hu aim high...
lik wat peter wrote in his book...
dun stop aiming high bt aim higher...
i also learnt a lot of things after reading his book...
i learnt about relationship as well as friendship...
nevertheless....
i really enjoy reading the book..

to someone:
dun worry abt mi..
although i m always forcing myself to study...
i noe how much i can take the stress...
i promise u tt i will try to relax myself more often yea...
dun be angry hor....
another thing is...
dun ***** mi...
cause i m ********* on u le...

nth to post le...
bb...tc..

2008-05-30T10:34:00.002+08:00

hi... readers....
i will not be updating my blog tt often...
because i will be concentrating on my 'O' level for now....
as wat Ken, Peter & Dr Ernest Wong had said...
Do it right the first time...
im gonna to work hard to achieve my goals...
sry for the inconvenience....
all the best to everyone too... :)

2008-05-14T20:31:00.002+08:00

these few daes...
veri tired...
cause had to attend a workshop called superteens...
it ended at 9pm everydae...
except todae....
it ended at 7pm...
yesterdae was a veri bad dae for the students hu attended the workshop...
cause most of us cried...
all because of the trainer, ernest...
the workshop is veri interesting...
it teaches us how to improve our memory...
it also made mi realise a lot of things which i will not shared it here...
i think i should stop here le...
bb...tc...

2008-05-10T18:01:00.002+08:00

todae is both happi and a bit sad...
happi cause went out wif jw and 'teddy bear'...
they help mi celebrate b'dae...
veri guilty....
cause they so busy yet went out wif mi to celebrate my b'dae...
anyway was quite fun....
we went to cwp to eat our lunch at pastamania...
it was quite nice...
den went to buy movie tickets....
den while waiting for the movie to start...
went to timezone cause jw wanted to play...
den went in to the cinema to watch iron man...
at first the movie was quite boring bt at the back was veri funny...
after the movie...
we went hm...
cause of this...
i m a bit sad...
cause i didnt expect so early den go hm le....
bt nvm la...
cause i had fun ma...
todae had fun bt tml going chiong hw le...
nth to post le...
bb...tc...

2008-05-06T17:12:00.002+08:00

yesterdae was maths paper...
it was totally ruined..
some qns i didnt noe how to do...
on top on tt...
i didnt saw some of the qns hence didnt do them...
the paper was quite tough...

yesterdae was mabel's b'dae...
hope she enjoyed her dae...
i felt so ps when i pass her the present lor...
cause other ppl all give her veri expensive things lor...
haiz...
hope she really lik it...

todae was phyisc and a math paper...
the papers was quite doable lor....
bt during recess when i tried the revise my a math...
my those monkey classmates kept making noise lor....
i was so damn angry and i shouted...
bt no one bother abt it lor....
so idiotic...

finally left wif one last paper, chem...
which will be on thurs...
which means i will have two daes to revise....
have to stop here le...
will update another dae...
bb...tc...

2008-05-03T19:48:00.002+08:00

yesterdae was my mt prelim paper....
its was ok lor...
after tt went to look for mr lim to ask him questions...
he shared a lot of things wif us....
quite ok to chat wif him lor....
he is much more friendly than in class....
funny and weird rite...

also dunno wat happen to mi...
from yesterdae till now my leg is so painful lor....
i think my joints are injured lor...
haiz...
now cant even walk...
cause its damn painful lor...

looking forward to two more weeks...
haiz...
i think also dun need to look forward lor...
cause i think no body will remember the dae lor...
nvm...
i m used to it liao...

tml gonna to do all my hw...
and maybe revise some maths ba...
gt to stop here le...
bb...tc...

2008-04-30T17:44:00.002+08:00

these few weeks quite ok ba....
the problem between mi and her is solved...
happi in class too...
relationship between the class and i improve a lot...
however they are veri noisy during lesson which i hate...
nowadaes also have a lot of hw...
made mi so stress!!!
bt wat can i do?
this year is o level le...
i must try my best to achieve the results i wanted....
(maths - A1, science - A1, mt - A2, eng - B4, A-maths - A2 & C.H - C5)
(L1R5 - 15 to 20, L1B4 - 10 to 15)
these few daes also chat a lot wif mabel...
so funny...
can u believe tt someone hu once hate u suddenly is ur friend and have lots of things to tok abt wih each other?
todae is someone's b'dae...
hope the person will enjoy his dae...
think should stop here le...
bb...tc...

2008-04-15T15:57:00.002+08:00

haiz...
whole of last week was veri sad and lonely....
as i think something happen between mi and someone....
bt i dun really noe wat happen la...
how i wish i could noe is happening...
is she angry wif mi or wat...
i really dunno...
these few daes also quite ok la...
cause i have friends comforting mi...
thanks gena and mabel for being there for mi!!!

to the girl...
i hope u noe hu u r....
can u pls tell mi wat is happening...
dun suddenly ignored mi....
it is really unbearable...
i m sry if i have offended u....
i m really sry...

have to stop here...
cause need to go back hm and do hw le...
as i now in school...
will update if i have the time..
bb...tc...

2008-04-08T21:47:00.002+08:00

these daes didnt update cause my cousin's laptop gt some problem...
these daes as usual...
very stress...
with friends and school...
two more weeks to ct2...
im gonna to work hard...
these few daes also dun feel lik going hm...
as it doesnt seems lik a hm...
haiz...
so fed up!!!
so sad...
bt wat can i do???
nth!!
i have no one to tok to also...
the person have left mi alone...
we have not been contacting with each other almost one mth le...
now...
i can only keep all my problems to myself...
as i dunno y i cant even trust my veri best friend...
the person is the only one i trust ba, i think...
todae in the morning also veri angry...
i jus wanna to borrow notes to copy....
bt she go photocopy for mi...
and say wat i mus pay her money....
WTH lor....
i didnt even ask her to photocopy lor....
is she herself wan to do it de lor....
still dare to demand money from mi!!
damn du lan lor...
was so angry with her tt we didnt even tok for 8 hrs???
few cents only also wan to tan xiao pian ti....
her photocopy free de den wan to collect money from mi!!!
den say wat she treat mi as her best friend!!!
i dun believe lor...
where ppl lik tt de...
best friend also wan to fen na me qing zhu de...
liers!!!
all r liers!!
i hate liers!!!
no mood to continue le...
bb....tc...

2008-03-30T16:16:00.002+08:00

haiz...
these few daes veri stress, sad & tired...
stress cause of the amount of hw i have...
i really cant cope it le....
bt can i give up?
no i cant....
hu can help mi???
i m going to breake down le...

sad cause i felt i and someone is drifting further and apart le...
y have we becoming lik this???
i have no one to tok my problems to le...
i really miss the daes where we tok on the phone and sms to each other...
hu can i trust my problems to except u???

tired cause i m tired of the quarrelling between my parents...
im really sick and tired of the quarellings....
it really make mi veri sad...
and made mi getting to dislike this home...
this doesnt look lik at home to mi!!!

haiz..
these daes jus so many things happen....
i dunno wat to do le..
i really need someone to comfort mi....
bt i think its imposible...
forget it...
tts all i wan to say...
bb...tc...

2008-03-20T17:27:00.002+08:00

these few daes veri stressful...
time-table change le...
sec 4 & 5 have to stay back til 3.35pm...
is quite tiring....
hope i can cope wif it lor....
tml is gd fri...
no school...
bt a lot of hw...
tt's all i wan to post....
bb...tc....

2008-03-15T22:18:00.002+08:00

todae was quite fun...
went out wif them for the first time...
kum treated jw and mi...
den jw was lik so hungry tt he ate most of the food...
after eating we went shopping around lot-1...
actually nth much lor...
so we went to plaza to walk...
also nth much lor...
so went hm lor...
tt's all for todae...
bb..tc...

2008-03-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

haiz....
these few daes gt a lot of problems la...
it made mi so confuse....
and almost made mi lose a friend...
however i still dunno hu to believe la...
maybe i shouldnt be kpo and gt involve in their problems...
luckily there is a friend hu is always there and listen to my sorrows...
thank you, jie hui...
for being there for mi when i m having problem...
think should stop here le...
tml will not post....
cause going to complete my hw...
so tt sat and sun can go out...
bb...tc...

2008-03-07T13:05:00.002+08:00

todae was damn sad....
cause of the stupid principal of a stupid school...
during ms siit's lesson...
she told us tt she will nt be teaching us le...
cause of the old mr ong la...
i cried when i heard tt lor...

y mr seet so biased de...
jus because 5B's results are better then our's...
so they are treat it better?
y they can change teacher we cannot?
y our teachers mus all be change yet theirs dun need...
first is mr prakrash den now ms siti...
NOT FAIR LOR!!!

I WANT MR PRAKRASH AND MS SITI BACK TO TEACH US!!!
RETURN ALL OUR TEACHERS BACK!!
STUPID SCHOOL WIF A STUPID PRINCIPAL!!!
HATE IT SCHOOL SO MUCH!!!
i m so glad tt i m in the last year in this stupid school...
shall stop here le...
will update later if gt thing to post...
bb...tc...

2008-03-06T19:31:00.002+08:00

todae was both happi & sad...
sad cause in the morning second period...
mr seet, mrs liao & mr khoo went to my class and tok to us...
they tok to us abt our results and future....
when they show the results...
i almost cry when i saw my results...
although i was the highest in my class....
bt the marks is nt wat i want....
there r my aims:
maths-1
sci-1
chi-1/2
eng- 4/5
combine human- 5/6
a-maths-1/2
L1B5: 13-17
L1B4:8-11
i noe tt it might nt be posible..
bt i will hard veri veri hard to achieve the aims...

happi cause todae was fun in class....
tok to bonfurt during recess these daes and todae during mt lesson...
it was quite fun to tok to him..
after tt was a- maths lesson...
bt we spend the whole lesson celebrating farewell for mr sha as he is leaving...
he told us tt mr rudy will take over....
i dunno weather he is gd a nt...
bt i will try double hard for a-maths...
after eating the cake..
we took photos....
it was quite fun....
bt will miss mr sha....
ok le...
shall stop here le...
bb...tc...

2008-03-04T18:37:00.002+08:00

today was neutral...
i m starting to feel the stress....
now feel lik giving up...
bt wat can i do???
should i or should i not?
haiz...
now not feeling too gd...
jus now before the course started...
when to someone's blog and click on another person's link...
unexpectedly....
i saw something tt i think i shouldnt see...
i dunno weather i should be happy or sad...
forget it...
maybe i should feel nth abt it...
one of these daes i m going to breakdown le...
so if i accidentally offended someone...
dun take it too seriously....
gtg and do my things le....
bb...tc....

2008-02-28T18:18:00.002+08:00

todae....
veri bad dae for mi...
morning was wake by my mum at 5 plus...
wth lor...
i already so tired le still want mi to go exercise...
in school damn tired lor...
almost sleep in class...
after school cause of something...
my best friend and i were damn upset...
dun wish to tok abt it here...
haiz...
todae no mood to continue le...
bb...tc...

2008-02-26T19:32:00.002+08:00

todae veri happi and sad....
happi cause i get back my test papers le...
here are my results:
maths - 37/40
physic - 49/50 ( bt one mark deducted for one qn didnt write the unit, so is 48/50)
english - 14/25
chinese - 37/60

sad cause my english and chinese results nt tt gd...
i swear i will work hard from now onwards!!!
if nt i will fail all my subjects!!!
plus todae's a-maths paper was tough...
i not sure if i can pass a not...
hope i can...

tt's all for todae!!!
gonna to do my hw...
bb..tc...

2008-02-22T19:11:00.005+08:00

yeaterdae was ok for mi...

except tt i was sick...

i m having sore throat and nose bleeding since the dae before...

morning was physic test...

it was manageable for mi...

haiz....

how i wish i have a pink mp3(cause i love pink)...

bt it will never happen de lor...

forget it...

well...

todae...

morning went to school for the JC2 programme...

later going for to plaza sing to do my hair...

after tt going to do hw...

tts all for todae...

bb...tc...

2008-02-21T17:19:00.002+08:00

todae veri sad...
dun wish to say it here...
todae was geo and maths test...
i think maths i have careless mistake...
haiz...
forget it la...
next time will work double hard!!!
the dae before yesterdae...
shi yun and yvonne brought mp3...
for 20 plus...
so envy...
this is shi yun's 3rd mp3 le...
so gd rite...
haiz...
wonder when den i can get tt man....
forget it ba...
hu ask mi to have no money...
gt to stop here le....
bb...tc....

2008-02-20T17:17:00.002+08:00

todae was ss test...
quite ok lor..
bt after the test i was veri pissed off...
because during the exam...
i see wrongly...
den i have to rewrite...
so i use correction tape...
the correction tape made a lot of sound....
so they always say lor...
jus because a small matter..
den they always say...
i also not gu yi de...
y mus they lik tt...
nvm...
few more months and i will be free from them le...
haiz...
prepare to get bad results for the common test le la...
shall stop le here...
bb..tc....

2008-02-14T20:41:00.002+08:00

back to blogging...
these daes have been veri busy wif hw and tutions....
i m feeling stress now....
my parents didnt give mi stress bt i have myself stress...
enough of these things...
lets tok abt todae...
todae was valentine's dae...
most of the ladies had presents.....
den i was lik so jealous lor..

however i had receive a surprise from someone..

the person gave mi a present which i never expected...
i ask y the person give mi present bt the person didnt reply...
i really happy to receive a present...
it was the first present i have receive....
i thought i will never get to receive any present in my whole life..
think i should stop here le...
bb..tc...

2008-01-29T19:49:00.000+08:00

ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i m geting sick and tired of this idiotic house!!!!!!!!
how i wish i was NEVER born to this world...
my parents are lik so baised lor...
they never care abt my feelings...
they never understand wat i want....
even if my siblings r in the wrong i will also kenna...
WTF lor...
now i cant even watch the television cause of my two stupid idiotic siblings....
and yet my mum is enjoy watching television all by her own in her room...
is lik so unfair lor...
we cannot watch television yet she can...
jus feel lik leaving this house!!!!!!!!!!!
jus now in school also veri dulan lor...
i brought so many decorations to school yet i have to pay for the decorations they r buying...
and the schol canteen foods are damn expensive lor...
i now also dun dare to eat during recess....
only drink water and sometimes eat after school cause staying back for some reasons...
now i m broke le...
cause of the school la...
everything need money yet the food so expensive and its so yucky lor...
not worthy for us to spent so much money on it lor...
from this week onwards will be veri busy le..
cause gt tests and remedial...
week 8 will be our common test le...
mus start revising le...
especially physic...
cause i dun even understand wat mr lim ,the new teacher is teaching lor...
shall stop here le...
cause have to go bath and continue doing my hw and study for tml's quiz...
bb...tc...

2008-01-21T18:21:00.000+08:00

now veri sad...
jus quarrelled wif my mum...
so angry lor...
jus because i ask the wrong thing at the wrong time den kenna scolding...
den ask her to post a letter for mi also kenna scolding...
i m going to break down le la...
i m lost...
y cant i live in peace???
dun feel lik living...
now crying while writing...
wat should i do???
no matter wat i do also wont made them happi de...
jus feel lik leaving hm la...
it doesnt matter if i m in this hm a not...
it doesnt make a difference..
maybe it will be better if i leave this idiotic hm of mine...
shall not continue le...
bb...tc...

2008-01-14T20:38:00.000+08:00

todae was not gd for mi...
i was veri angry todae...
recess went to enterprising club to buy drink...
and guess wat...
the member serve the guy behind mi first!!!
i was damn du lan lor...
den after recess was mt...
it was suppose to be in my class...
den the teacher want us to go to class 5b...
where gt lik tt de!!!
den she say wat odd week @ 5b den even week @ 5a...
so troublesome lor...
hate todae lor...
everything was lik not smooth lor...

tml going for the mobile mapping...
it every tues....
and my dance pratice also on tues...
so i m unable to complete my cca by term one...
and therefore i have to continue and complete it by term two..
is lik so the........lor...
haiz...
y this year everything not smooth for mi de...
i hate it so much lor!!!
shall stop here le...
cause no more mood to continue..
bb...tc...

2008-01-12T17:58:00.000+08:00

todae was a bad dae for mi!!!
in the morning went to school...
bt our tutor did nt come...
is lik wasting my time lor...
den when i reach hm...
i cook mee goreng...
den i went to do my h.w...
den my mum ask mi to bring my sibling to for their test...
bt i had a lot of h.w to do...
so i told my mum i dun wan to go...
bt she go and complain to father...
WTH...
i hate it lor...
den when my father woke up...
he nagged at mi!!!
say wat i dunno how to think for them...
i think for them den hu think for mi?!
everydae when i came back from school i have to do housework...
and it almost cause mi to have nt enough time to do my hw...
and this year is my o level...
to mi is a important year for mi lor...
y cant they think for mi???
i m so stress up la!!!
i m going to breakdown le..
i m wondering if i will drop out of sec 5 halfway a not...
i m so scare...
i really dunno wat to do....
maybe my father is right...
i m so useless...
i cant even do well in simple things lik housework...
haiz...
now crying when writing this post...
they jus dun understand wat i wan or need...
no matter weather i listen to them a not they also not satified...
wat mus i do den they will be happii???
have to stop here le...
cause have to continue doing my hw le...
bb...tc....

2008-01-10T19:40:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was still alright lor...
now everydae gt h.w...
bt still can cope la...
yesterdae after school quickly went hm to change bag...
den wait for jh to go back to school together...
saw someone when going to reach school...
bt didnt tok to the person...
when reach school went to buy some food to eat...
den went to outside G.O to wait for teacher..
cause going to S.P for their open house...
den i & jh went around to explore...
& guess wat...
we almost get lost....
it was damn big lor...
den @ around 4.45pm we went back hm by mrt...
we reach hm at abt 6pm...

todae was ok lor...
todae was first dae of cca dae...
bt todae dun have c.d...
so went to lib...
was quite ok lor...
jus busy doing the call no....
todae will be doing hw...
this week gt quite a lot of h.w to do...
guess will be spending my week end doing my h.w...
haiz...
starting to feel stress le!!!
mus focus in class!!!
shall stop here le...
b...tc...

2008-01-07T19:28:00.000+08:00

hihi..
im back to post...
school are alright...
bt i dun feel happi...
maybe cause of tt person ba...
the person had new friends...
and i think we drifting further and further away...
wat should i do???
haiz...
i think forget it ba...
hope the daes will be better... :)
bb...tc...

2008-01-02T19:29:00.000+08:00

well...
let's tok abt yesterdae first...
yesterdae was my best friend, irin's birthdae!!!
actuallly...
i wanted to pass her the present in person de...
bt i press her door bell and knock the door also no one answered...
so i guess she's out so i put the present on her door gate...
last year i put the present in her mail box as i was too shy cause we have not been contacting each other for so long...
i'm so sry, irin...
hope u dun mind...
anyway...
i was veri happii to noe tt she is happii to receive my presents...
hope she lik those presents...

todae...
first dae of school...
we sat in the hall for TWO hours...
it was so bored lor...
den was the grooming check...
after tt...
we went back to class...
elect class commitee...
i was sapo by mabel...
bt luckily no one vote for mi!!!
we went for our recess at 11am...
after recess was english lesson...
bt for the first eng lesson...
the teacher was late....
she came only the sec lesson...
and guess wat...
we have to have spelling on the first dae of school.... :(
those words were given by ms chua last year on the first lesson too...
bt when the teacher gave us the spelling..
a lot i dunno how to spell!!!
i guess i have to stress myself to work even harder this to achieve better results...
shall stop here le...
bb...tc...

2007-12-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

back to blogging again...
these daes also busy doing housechores...
veri tired...
also veri boring...
cause nobody call or sms mi...
bt nvm...
cause holidae ma...
todae veri happii...
cause todae i gt mine n level results...
and i m one of the top!!!
which i had never expected...
i was damn shock when i saw my name on the projector...
a lot of my friends came to congrates mi...
and tt really makes mi veri happii!!! :)
enough for todae...
bb...tc...

2007-12-04T18:27:00.000+08:00

it has been a long since i have update my blog...
these daes veri sad, tired & happy...
sad because i get scolded every single dae...
tired cause i have do all the housechores...
happy cause i learn to cook... :P
well...
these daes also went to other ppl blog to see...
i felt so envy...
they have bfs, can go out wif their friends...
i dun really have much friends bt nvm....
one dae i will have more friends de...
shall stop here le...
bb...tc...

2007-11-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

haiz...
these daes veri sad and worried...
my mum was hospitalize...
also need to undergo an operation...
todae was her operation date...
jus now afternoon went to see her...
my heart ache a lot...
sad to see her lik this...
these daes also veri busy and tired as i need to do the housechores...
how i wish now someone could call and comfort mi....
now really veri confuse...
shall stop here le...
bb...tc...

2007-11-18T13:23:00.000+08:00

haiz...
these daes veri boring...
also dunno y my heart so confuse...
next week i m going to be the 'woman of the house' le...
cause my mum is going for an operation...
so i m suppose to do all the house chores and look after my siblings...
my bro also going to work...
so left wif mi alone to do all the chores...
hope tt my mum will be fine lor...
i now veri scared...
as i never done a single chores before...
i not sure if i can do it well a not...
haiz...
todae is also one of my best friend birthdae...
happii birthdae, kelly!!!
shall not continue le...
cause i dun think is gd to write all my problems here...
bb...tc...

2007-11-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

haiz...
these daes at hm veri boring...
i guess i will be jobless for now till school reopen...
thursdae was deepavali...
i was invited to my teacher's house for dinner...
nost of my classmates had job....
guess i m jus too useless le ba...
cant even find a part time job...
no...
should be no one want to employ mi...
dunno wat will happen in future...
so scared tt next time when i grow also will be lik tt...
cant find a job...
wat should i do now???
haiz...
think should stop here le ba...
bb...tc...

2007-11-07T20:53:00.000+08:00

yesterdae nite my cousin came to my house to stay...
he came from msia for holidae...
bt fri going back le...
jus now went to other ppl's blog to see...
came across xin yi's blog...
few daes ago was her b'dae...
i really envy her...
cause she gt friends help her celebrate her b'dae...
she also receive a lot of presents from her friends...
how i wish tt could happen to mi...
bt i dun tt is possible...
haiz...
forget it ba...
no use thinking of something tt will never happen...
think will end here le...
bb...tc...

2007-11-05T22:08:00.000+08:00

now veri sad...
so decided to post the second post for the dae...
now i felt so useless...
i cant even control my siblings...
i treat them gd they take advantage of it...
they dun even scared of mi...
and dun even respect mi...
i veri useless rite...
they made mi feel tt i dun fit to be their sis...
wat should i do now???
y m i so unlucky de...
born into this family...
siblings dun respect mi...
parents dun even care abt mi...
jus noe how to nag at mi...
no matter wat i do also cant made them happii de...
results gd so wat...
gt a family lik dun have lik tt...
now crying while writing this post...
jus feel lik leaving this hm le...
or die even better rite...
one dae i shall do tt...
enough for this le...
say so much also no use...
it will not make my tears stop...
it will only made it worse...
bb...tc...

2007-11-05T18:42:00.000+08:00

haiz....
todae veri disappointed...
how i wish i could reborn my hair...
i hate this hair of mine...
bt also cant do anything...
cause my parents dun allow...
cause of my head skin problem...
now veri scared...
scared tt my 'illness' will not be cured...
i dun wan tt...
hu can help mi???
does eating medicine helps???
i dun wan to eat medicine the whole of my life...
i wan to be a normal person lik everybody else...
when can it be cured???
y mus i have so many problems???
feel lik dying now...
dun wish to bring problems to my parents...
also dun wan them to worry for mi...
haiz...
dun wish to continue le...
bb...tc...

2007-11-04T18:18:00.000+08:00

haiz...
these daes veri sad...
dunno y...
maybe cause went to see others friendster to see and discover something ba...
i m not as popular as the others...
they open another account bt did nt tell mi...
and i think some block mi in the msn..
cause some my bro also have their account bt when they online my side shows tt they r offline...
i dunno y they did tt...
m i tt irritated???
haiz...
maybe cause i m outdated, dunno how to follow the tend, stupid, fat, short and ugly..
so no body wan to be friend wif mi ba...
haiz...
i think it is fate tt i dun have much friends ba...
think too much also no use...
y dun i live wif it rite??
dun wish to continue le...
bb...tc...

2007-11-03T22:14:00.000+08:00

haiz...
todae veri sad...
bt forget it ba...
also dun wish to tok abt it...
haiz...
if noe tt if i will be sad if i go out i will not go out lor...
bt everything is over le...
todae also nth to post...
bb...tc...

2007-10-30T19:59:00.000+08:00

erm...
todae veri tired...
cause after my work at 11...
i went to many places to find job....
bt all will confirm by this fri or next fri...
bt the job is either cashier or sales ass...
dunno weather i will get the job a not...
aiya i also dun wan care le la...
todae walk the whole dae also didnt eat anything...
so i feel so dizzy in the afternoon...
think stop here le...
bb..tc...

2007-10-26T20:21:00.000+08:00

haiz...
these daes so boring!!!
wanna find job bt no one wan to hire mi...
ask mi to leave my phone no bt didnt call mi...
where can i find more jobs???
hu can tell mi.??
haiz...
m i tt bad???
maybe cause i dunno anything ba...
so they dun wan to hire mi...
think stop here le...
cause nth to write le...
bb...tc...

2007-10-23T19:28:00.000+08:00

todae...
haiz...
dun feel lik writing anything...
bt thin will write some ba...
my sis did something wrong todae...
hope wat i told her she will absorb...
haiz...
i stay at hm my parents nag...
say wat i lazy...
den if i everytime go out den they also not happii...
i really dunno wat they wan!!!
i wan to go look for jobs...
bt where can i go and find???
hu can give mi some commends???
haiz...
think should stop here le...
bb...tc...

2007-10-18T19:10:00.000+08:00

todae not feeling veri gd...
cause my mum lor...
she last time say i can reborn hair de...
now she say wait till i finish schooling...
wth lor...
everytime say 1 thing bt do the another...
y mus i have this type of family de...
always didnt keep their word de...
hate this kind of family...
wish to leave this house asap lor...
cant stand it anymore!!!
haiz...
y cant my family lik the others...
y cant i lik the others...
will get watever i wan???
dun wish to continue le...
bb..tc...

2007-10-16T13:29:00.000+08:00

haiz....
so boring...
at hm also nth to do...
friend ask mi to go my mum also dun let..
going to bored to death!!!
yesterdae went to NTUC wif jie hui to see if they want to employ ppl a not...
bt the person jus ask us to leave our phone no and say will call us if they want us...
yesterdae also went plaza wif my father to buy a new hp...
is w580i...
its nice bt also veri expansive...
it cost $238...
bt my father gt $80 discount...
so final price is $158...
bt i think veri expansive lor...
bt still my father buy for mi...
thank you veri much, papa...
later at night going to fajar for an interview...
the job is my bro recommend de...
bt only for 4 daes...
bt its better den nth lor...
shall stop here le...
bb...tc..

2007-10-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

todae veri sad...
dunno y la..
maybe cause went to see ppl's blog and saw somethings tt i shouldnt...
really cant stand it le...
haiz...
for get it ba...
nobody will understand my feelings de...
tml going back to school for the course...
yeah...
3 more daes and i will ne having my holidae le....
veri happii...
and think i will be bored to death...
cause nth to do wat..
think will go find a job to do...
bt where can i find???
hu cares...
let the nature take it course ba..
should stop here le...
bb..tc...

2007-10-04T17:00:00.000+08:00

hehe..
back to post again...
cause previously busy preparing for my N level...
todae is my last dae of my N level...
so todae veri happii....
cause no more stress le...
bt soon will have again...
cause next year will be veri busy...
cause i m selected for the mobile mapping...
so next year for the first three mths will be veri busy...
den after tt soon will have O level prelims and O level mt....
haiz...
time passes veri fast...
i think when taking N level results tt dae...
i will be veri nervous de...
cause scared i cannot go up to sec 5...
although i m veri confidence in my maths and science...
bt veri about my eng and combine humanities...
scared if combine humanities fail...
mr siva dun let us go sec 5...
haiz....
now worry also no use...
hehe...
maybe soon will have a new hp...
and maybe will go reborn my hair during dec holidae...
think will stop here le...
bb..tc...

2007-09-13T16:44:00.000+08:00

back to post le...
haiz...
these few daes not feeling well...
having cough and sore throat...
also dun feel lik eating...
these few daes also veri sad and worried...
dun wish to talk abt it...
maybe will wait till oct den will post le...
cause going to start preparing my n level le....
nth to post le....
bb....tc...

2007-09-03T18:26:00.000+08:00

haiz...
these daes lik so fed-up lor...
bt i shall not bother abt those childish ppl...
now having n-level le....
todae is mt paper...
dunno wat grade will i gt....
hope i can gt A1/A2...

sry guys...
for causing u all to be involve in these childish problem...
hope u all will not bother abt the asshole....

to the asshole...
if u hate mi...
jus come to mi....
dun go say the bad things abt mabel they all....
they did not even do anything to u lor....
y mus u say them???
u dun even noe wat is going on...
still wan to say them???
pls reflect on urself first before u say abt others....
say ppl childish, lame...
i think u r the one hu is lame and childish lor....
pls stop writing all those childish comment can...
is lik so distusting lor....
make ppl feel lik vomitting lor...

shall stop here le....
hope all those problems will stop soon...
bb...tc....

2007-08-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

now veri angry!!!
some bloody idiot went to spam my blog...
the person scold mi stupid bitch...
although i roughly noe hu is the person...
bt i will not go find the person...
cause i dun wan to anyhow accuse ppl without evidence...
anyway...
todae the class was quite funny...
and todae quite peaceful...
bt dunno if they gossip abt mi a not....
i also dun wish to care...
cause their mouth will rot one of these daes...
hahahahas...
mi bad rite...
bt they even more bad...
so they deserve to be cursed...
hahahas...
i shall stop here le...
bb..tc...

2007-08-21T15:27:00.000+08:00

these daes veri upset...
cause of my stupid classmates again la...
i didnt do them den they come and disturb mi!!!
bt i will be bother...
i will jus let them say until their mouth rot!!!

to those stupid bloody bitches :
so wat my hair lik octopus???
so wat my hair lik ah ma???
are these ur business???
did i do wrong when i wrong the thing back to the back?
i didnt even noe hu threw tt to mi...
so i jus throw back la...
wat do u expect mi to do???
i m not as childish as u all lor...
u all r so damn childish...
even childish den a small kid...
wat have i done tt u all have to do these to mi???
u all didnt even understand wat is going wrong and den spread to everyone and say things behind my back...
and den still say i say things abt u all behind u all back...
pls reflect on wat u have done or said before u say or do to others!!!

haiz...
gt back some of my prelim papers le...
although so far all are A1/A2...
i m not so satified wif my results!!!
cause its not the standard tt i wan to get!!!
haiz...
mus work even harder for my N-level le!!!
i mus win over them!!!
wish to be the first in class again... :(
think should stop here le...
bb...tc...

2007-08-18T17:02:00.000+08:00

finally prelims r over...
bt soon N-level is reaching...
really veri stress!!!
haiz...
these daes veri confuse...
i have hurt someone again....
haiz...
next week will hear a lot of things abt mi again...
going to be crazy....
although i say i will not bother abt them...
bt i m going to be crazy because of them...
next week maybe going to take back our results...
think my results should be ok lor...
bt i think mine A-maths results will be veri sucks lor...
haiz...
prepared to get mine bad results le...
bt nvm...
i will work even harder for mine N-level...
think to stop here le...
bb...tc...

2007-08-09T17:54:00.000+08:00

haiz...
so long didnt post le...
cause mus study for prelim and N level...
anyway...
i was veri upset these daes...
i was being called octopus...
all bacause of my hair...
i was veri upset at first...
bt i realise tt i have work even hard to win over them...
hence i will not be bother by those idiotic people...
they wan say then let them say lor...
later their mouth rot also not my problem wat...
and if i have offended anybody esp my best friend - jh for watever reason...
i m sry....
if i have offended anybody..
i didnt mean it...
however...
weather to forgive mi a not...
i leave u all to decide...
think should stop here le...
bb...tc...

2007-08-02T14:58:00.000+08:00

todae damn sad...
how i wish i could stay away from school...
cause i dun wish to hear things tt i dun lik...
haiz....
how can i express my sadness...
i treat them as my friends...
yet tt is how they treat mi...
so disappointed...
sad sad sad!!!
no mood to continue le...
bb...tc...

2007-08-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

todae actually nothing de until when i meet my friends to study...
i m veri sad now...
i dunno weather i should go to school a not...
i dunno how to face them le...
y mus they treat mi this way???
thank you mabel...
for telling mi all this...

to my hateful classmates:
i noe u all hate mi...
bt u all dun need lik tt wat...
u all may think wat u all wan...
i will not be bother anymore....
bt i hope u all would tell mi my weakness in front of mi...
not behind my back!!!

now angry and veri sad...
dun wish to continue le...
bb...tc...

2007-07-30T19:00:00.000+08:00

haiz....
recently so sad!!!
dunno y have so many problems...
so many tt i dun wish to post...
haiz...
prelim is cuming...
dunno wat to do...
maybe will leave this blog alone till end of prelim/N-level...
so if gt anything...
and gt my contact...
can call/sms mi...
tt's all for todae...
bb...tc....

2007-07-26T21:08:00.000+08:00

todae veri sad & angry...
in the morning...
i didnt lock the classroom door...
bt is one of the malay girl...
yet gt say by the stuoid idiot shorty...
i was damn piss off todae...
i hate the stupid bitch!!!
haiz...
dun wish to continue le...
no mood...
bb...tc...

2007-07-25T14:44:00.000+08:00

todae was ok for mi...
however was pissed off by someone...
shall not mention name here...
haiz...
todae have nth much to post...
so i shall stop here le...
later going to zehnghua cc to study wif friends...

to the bitch, liyana...
U THINK ITS FUNNY TO SAY PPL???
SO WAT I M TRYING TO ACT CUTE!!!
IF U DUN LIK CAN JUS DUN SEE LA...
I NOE U MUS BE JEALOUS RITE?
PPL CAN ACT CUTE BT U CANNOT WAT...
U STUPID BITCH!!!!
U THINK ONLY U HATE MI??
LET MI TELL U...
I HATE U TOO...
SO DUN EVER PISS MI OFF AGAIN...
OR ELSE U WILL REGRET IT!!!

2007-07-24T20:08:00.000+08:00

todae veri happii...
also dunno y....
jus feel tt i m veri xing fu...
cause of something tt's y feel this way ba..
haiz...
i these few weeks lik spend a lot of $ in food...
think mus cut down on it le...

i promise u i wont hate or blame myself when anything happen...
bt u mus also promise mi not to affect ur studies cause of mi kkx???
i also promise u if i feel tt i have the feeling wif u i will s**** wif u...
bt not now...
cause i now feel veri stress and have a lot of problems...
i feel lik i m having difficulty breathing...
so if u wan to wait...
i dun mind....
if u dun wish to wait le...
i will let u go de...
hope no more problems for u...
if u mus have problems...
i help u cheng dan...
L3 u 4ever....
m****... :) :P

2007-07-23T16:09:00.000+08:00

todae not so happii...
cause i was make fun of...
not only mi...
bt my best friend, jh too...
and she cried...
cause she was hit by a paper ball thrown by a idiotic malay boy hu lik to disturb ppl...
he was the one hu disturb mi too...
and i stared at him till we r allow to go off...
the worse thing tt i feel is tt even mabel hu i treat as my best friend laugh too when i was being disturb...
r they my true friends???
i m really confused...
r they really treating as their best friends/friends or they r only making use of mi???

To my hateful class, 4E...
DO U ALL THINK TT ITS FUNNY WHEN SOMEONE IS BEING BULLIED??? DO U ALL THINK TT WE R VERI GD TO BULLY??? CAN U ALL PUT URSELVES IN OUR SHOES AND THINK!!! IF SOMEONE IS ALWAYS BULLYING U AND NO ONE HELP U, HOW WOULD U FEEL??? U ALL WILL FEEL SAD RITE!!! SO STOP ALL THOSE BULLYING!!! I M GETTING TO HATE THIS CLASS!!!

2007-07-19T15:06:00.000+08:00

todae i was darn sad...
the min i reach the school hall...
i put down my bag and went out of the hall to cry...
maybe still thinking of the matter yesterdae...
i receive a call and was 'scolded' by jh's mum...
when i put down the phone...
mine tears jus roll down my cheeks...
my mum noe abt it and ask mi not to be jh anymore...
bt i really treat her my best friend...
so i m veri confused now...
bt this is she treats mi...
i m veri disappointed now...
not in her bt in myself...
wat should i do now???
hu can tell mi???
haiz...
now no mood to do anything le(including studyin)
bb...tc...

2007-07-18T16:11:00.000+08:00

todae was ok for mi....
quite happii lor...
jus now gt oral...
while waiting in the waiting room...
we chat among ourselves...
den when its mine turn...
i was feeling ok lor...
den when it came to the conversation part...
i was lik totally lost...
so jus anyhow sae lor...
haiz...
i think i did veri badly lor...
enough for todae...
bb...tc...

2007-07-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

todae veri...
went to lot one wif see yi, mabel &hui en...
we went there to watch Harry Potter...
it was quite ok...
bt some parts were boring...
todae had not much to say...
so i shall stop here le...
bb..tc...

2007-07-14T19:54:00.000+08:00

todae i'm happii and angry...
i todae went out wif hui en , mabel & see yi...
intently go west mall support the drama...
bt when we reach cck mrt station...
we gt a msg tt says its has ended...
so we went lot one to have our lunch...
den we went window shopping...
den receive a call from kelly saying tt they reach lot one le...
so run to rush there and meet them..
nevertheless...
they boarded the bus first....
and i was so angry tt i ignored them...
although i act crazy...
and look happii...
im heartbroken...
if u all dun wish to wait for mi...
jus say la!!!
dun need lik tt de!!!
made mi so disappointed!!!
hate u guys now!!!
bt hu can i blame???
can only blame myself for running so slow rite???
i push all the blames to myself!!!
happii now???
no mood to continue le...
bb...tc...

2007-07-13T16:48:00.000+08:00

todae veri veri veri happii...
cause i went out wif my best friends!!!
and we had a lot of fun!!!
however...
i didnt get to buy anything...
cause im broke...
poorest in the group...
hahas...
bt nvm...
i will continue to save $...
maybe a day spend about $2...
den save the rest... :P
hope to have more of these daes..
hahas...
bt now not so happii...
cause when i reach hm...
den for a while my parents lik wan to quarrel lik tt...
haiz..
y cant they uderstand tt when they quarrel...
their children will be the ones suffering???
hate it when they quarrel...
need to stop le...
mi going to rest for a while...
den later go back to school to teach & self study...
bb...tc...

2007-07-12T15:14:00.000+08:00

todae i'm veri veri veri sad...
and i cried early in the morning...
i noe i am short , fat & ugly...
bt u all think i wan de meh?
i also wish to grow tall...
u all think i dun wan meh...
i really regret going up the stage todae to receive my award...
if i hadnt go up...
i wont be so sad...
i knew it will happened....
and i thought i could bear wif it...
bt when i really cant take it anymore...
i burst out wif tears...
i didnt blame anyone...
bt i m really stress out ...
i really wish to distress myself...
bt can i do it?
y m i so useless???
i had never done anything rite...
i m so stupid and useless...
for a small matter..
and i cried!!
veri useless rite??
how i wish i could vanish from this stupid place!!!
i jolly noe well tt i m short...
so i didnt blame the person hu laugh at mi...
thought tt i could go over it...
bt i jus couldnt...
y m i so weak???
haiz...
think shold stop here le...
bb...tc..

>++*i will be rightt here waitin ferr euu*++

>++i will be rightt here waitin ferr euu++